What do u think of this situation?

my dads an alcoholic hes also bipolar..he abuses my moom but recently he went to far and she called the police. she now is gettin a divorce and has a retraining order and hes not allowed to speak to or see my mother brother nor i. ive been cutting myself for quite some time..im very emotional and moody..i really dont have any friends anymore...i consider myself a complete w h o re. i have a boyfriend however but i feel as if were getting distant..i had a few friends until i made out with one of my friends boyfriend and got fingered by my other friends boyfriend. i have a humongous chest and a decent body...i have a horrible relationship with my mother. ive nvr had a conversation deeper than what the weather was like with her..its like living with a stranger. my boyfriend is the only one i can talk to..im not a mean girl i just dont want to feel lonely anymore if im making out with a boy or in a guys lap or doing something of a ual nature. i was diagonosed with OCD but i dont take medication...my fathers cheated on my mother.i just want to know what u think of this situation? even wen i had friends i felt empty...im content dont get me wrong i just feel i dont konw how to even explain..what do u think? opinions? thanks if u read this entire thing lol. ive cheated on my bf btw...ahaha